Thoughts About The Future

Tonight was the Senior Slideshow and Candlelighting. Oh man that was so memorable but at the same time it was something that I wish hadn't come. Mostly because it means that graduation is just around the corner. In my last post I was saying how I wanted so badly not to graduate but things have happened lately that have totally changed my mind. Matt and I have been thinking alot about our future and have started talking about getting married. I know some people might say that we are too young to know what we want and if we are ready to make that big of a step but we have to start thinking about these things. With me leaving within a few weeks (if my job comes in) for basic, Matt and I really have to decide whats up with us and if we want to try and do this. I love him with all my heart and I couldn't stand to be without him. He's everything to me. I honestly can't see myself in 30 years without him by my side. I know that even if I was to make this giant leap and do something I swore I would never do, I would be very confident in my decision. They say that when you meet that certain someone who you are meant to be with everything inside you just clicks one day and you know. I know he is the one for me. I could have all feeling taken from me and just looking at him I would know that I am supposed to be with him for the rest of my natural life, and then some. And even if Matt and I don't take those sacred vows one day, I will always be with him and love him. I can't help but love him. I want all those things that I swore never to want with him. I want to become a mother one day (if it is what God wants). I want to be referred to as "Matt's wife" or "Mrs. Rivera". I want the little house that has dogs in the backyard and Pettitte running around the house/neighborhood. I want all that. But mostly, I want it with him. Is that crazy of me or am just a love struck teenager who needs to grow up a little more?