Long time no talk! I guess things have been so crazy that I never got a chance to sit down and write about how things have been. I have been busy helping my brother pack up my dad's house, but I really won't get into that one just because I am not speaking to my father due to this. Anyways I am up here in Omaha with everyone. Matt came up here with us (I think it was mostly because he didn't want to see me leave), and he left this morning. I miss him so much already. I wish he could have stayed but I understand he had to go back home. I have to admit I had a hard time watching him go but I know that this isn't a permanent separation so that made it so much easier. After Matt left I sat on the porch for about 10 minutes and then I went inside and put on his hoodie and tried to keep myself from crying. I know it sounds really stupid but being away from him is so hard. He literally has kept me alive these last few weeks. His love was what made me get up in the morning. And it still does. I miss him. I miss hearing his laughter while I am tickling him. I miss him holding me in his arms and making me feel as if nothing will ever harm me. I miss seeing his smile. Hell I even miss that boy's gas! You know what? This whole love thing is just plain wierd sometimes, but I love it!