Thoughts

 I have been reading the stuff that I have written within the last few days and I realized that I have so much stuff going through my head and I wonder why I can never voice all this. Is it that I can't find the right words? Or maybe I am afraid to say what I am really thinking. I have never cared what people have thought about me (or enough for me to get hurt if someone doesn't like me) but maybe I really do. How come I can voice my thoughts on politics, religion, or even sports but when it comes to the stuff that I really want to talk about I can't find the words? Am I afraid to hear what others will think or am I just plain afraid to speak up for those tough things in my head? I know I am not a shy person but why do I always keep things inside me until its too late to make a difference? That doesn't make too much sense to me and it's my own thoughts! I always tell my friends to speak up about things that are bothering them or even things that are on their minds. Maybe I should take my own advice and start speaking up, regardless of who I hurt.