The Next Chapter

Hey hey hey! Sorry I haven't written in so long. I wish I could have written more, but my deployment kept me busy. I am home! I got back on 7 Sept and am home on leave right now. Alot of things have happened so let me catch you guys up....Matt and I are no longer together. He broke up with me the night before I deployed. I really don't want to go into the details with it but it was pretty nasty. I was a mess for awhile but I realized it was for the best and moved on to bigger and better things. I am now seeing a guy in my squadron who I was deployed with. His name is Michael and I am crazy about him! He is absolutely wonderful and so patient with me. I feel so comfortable, so relaxed with him. Michael is extremely patient with me and for once, another person totally understands what it is like to be hurt in every past relationship. We started out this relationship with baby steps. I really like it simply because I have had the worst luck when it comes to men and I am so tired of letting a guy in and he end up hurting me. Michael is the first guy I have really trusted in a long time. I told him about Dad and he said he couldn't judge someone he doesn't know. I swear I felt my heart melt when I heard him say that. Everyone in the family can't wait to meet him. Mandie and Michael have talked and he got Shortcake's seal of approval. Mom and Bill like him too. They keep asking me when I am gonna bring Michael home. Matt (my brother) even asked when he was gonna meet him! Lisa really hasn't said much about him except that she thinks he is just after me for a piece of ass. She only says that because he is 25 and I am 19. Trust me, that isn't even a big factor in our relationship. I mean the sex is amazing, but our relationship isn't defined by sex. We both have agreed that it was kinda nice to get to know each other on a mental level before we ever had sex. Mind you the first 4 months of our relationship was in the desert and we weren't allowed to even hold hands but still. I feel so complete with him. During the week we really don't see each other since we have work and I look forward to my days off because I get to see him. I love waking up in his bed and being able to watch him sleep, even if it is for a minute (so I don't wake him up). I love cuddling with him. I feel so safe in his arms. Gosh I have fallen for him. I think I love him. I have told him this, since I believe in total honesty in a relationship and I am very open and honest with him. I can tell him anything. I feel like I don't deserve Michael. He really is wonderful. I really don't want to fuck this up...I kinda like having him around.
This next portion I will only slightly touch (for now at least), but return to it in my next posting. Lisa got engaged about a month ago and told us 2-3 days ago that she is pregnant. That's right, I am going to be an aunt. I am gonna go into this more in my next time around. Allie and her boyfriend Mark got married and they are expecting a little girl in December. I am going to be the godmother and I am so excited. I am so happy for Allie. She really does deserve to be happy and she is going to be a great mother.
Alright homies I am gonna sign off here because I am tired but I love all you and take care!