Thirteen Things I absolutely love about Michael Thomas... 1. How he makes me laugh. I always know that if I am in urgent need of a laugh that he is a phone call away. 2. His eyes. He has the most beautiful pair! They are brown but have a ring of green on the outside of them. 3. How unbelieveably supportive he is of me. No matter what I do or say, he is there. 4. I love how we can hang out and it just be us and we have a blast! I love just staying at home with him and farting around. We don't need other people around to have fun, and that is awesome! 5. His sense of humor. It may be a little twisted sometimes, but it makes him unique and that is why I love him! 6. When he does his dumb little run around the house. You would have to see it, but it is absolutely hilarious and he looks so cute doing it! 7.The way he looks at me. I swear it is like I can read his thoughts, even if only for a second... 8. Lying in bed and having pillow talk with Michael is always on my top spot. We always listen to Tom Waits and talk about everything, from work to how farting is romantic. Don't ask about that last one.... 9. I love when he calls or texts me randomly. It lets me know that even though we aren't around each other, I am still with him. 10. All the stupid little nicknames he has for me. I especially love when he calls me Doink, but I will never admit to him... 11. He cuddles! And I don't make him either... 12. How he is always there for me. If may be going through some tough stuff, I know that I will have him to catch me when I fall. 13. Michael is the best thing about him. I definately got my diamond in the rough and he ain't going anywhere!!! Links to other Thursday Thirteens!1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!)

Get the Thursday Thirteen code here!

The purpose of the meme is to get to know everyone who participates a little bit better every Thursday. Visiting fellow Thirteeners is encouraged! If you participate, leave the link to your Thirteen in others comments. It’s easy, and fun! Be sure to update your Thirteen with links that are left for you, as well! I will link to everyone who participates and leaves a link to their 13 things. Trackbacks, pings, comment links accepted!
View More Thursday Thirteen Participants

What A Day!!!

Ok I know I haven't been posting alot lately, but I work like it is going out of style!! I will give the quick update. Michael and I are still together and very much in love. It will be one year next month and this has been the best year of my life! He is such an amazing person with a beautiful soul. I don't know what I would do without him. I will talk more about him later. Lisa is having a boy, Xander Wolfgang (no comment!!), and is due in June. I am really excited about having a nephew to spoil. Allie had her baby, a little girl who she named JoLee Mae. She is absolutely adorable and I cannot wait to meet her!! Uhm let's see what else....Mandie and Adam bought a house. I haven't seen it yet but I am told it is the mirror image of Mom's. Matt got into an accident a couple weeks ago but he is doing just fine. Damn I don't know what else there is, so I will just move on to what is going on as of now.
I had such a crazy day today. Michael had to go to the hospital because he was having severe chest palpatations. I was scared shitless because I wasn't being told anything except that he was complaining of chest pains at pt this morning and they took him to the hospital sometime later after that. He told me when I finally saw him that his heart rate got up to over 200 bpm (beats per minute). The doctor told him that he was going to be ok, that he had seen this kinda thing happen before to people while they were working out. Michael is at home now and is hooked up to a portable heart monitor for the next 24 hours. I am just glad he is ok. I was so scared. I kept thinking about what I would have done without him. I think today just solidified to me that I really do love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him. I can't imagine life without him right now, not ever. He is the best thing that has happened to me and I am so lucky to have him. I did tell him however that if he scares me like that again I was gonna kill him myself. Lol no I wouldn't but he did tell me that I was the only thing he thought of. He kept saying that he kept wondering how he was going to tell me and that he was sorry for worrying me. I think he mostly said that because he knew I had been crying and was pretty upset about everything. But everything is ok now, I am just going to watching him like a hawk. Hopefully he will slow down some but maybe my nagging him to the trick....

The Next Chapter

Hey hey hey! Sorry I haven't written in so long. I wish I could have written more, but my deployment kept me busy. I am home! I got back on 7 Sept and am home on leave right now. Alot of things have happened so let me catch you guys up....Matt and I are no longer together. He broke up with me the night before I deployed. I really don't want to go into the details with it but it was pretty nasty. I was a mess for awhile but I realized it was for the best and moved on to bigger and better things. I am now seeing a guy in my squadron who I was deployed with. His name is Michael and I am crazy about him! He is absolutely wonderful and so patient with me. I feel so comfortable, so relaxed with him. Michael is extremely patient with me and for once, another person totally understands what it is like to be hurt in every past relationship. We started out this relationship with baby steps. I really like it simply because I have had the worst luck when it comes to men and I am so tired of letting a guy in and he end up hurting me. Michael is the first guy I have really trusted in a long time. I told him about Dad and he said he couldn't judge someone he doesn't know. I swear I felt my heart melt when I heard him say that. Everyone in the family can't wait to meet him. Mandie and Michael have talked and he got Shortcake's seal of approval. Mom and Bill like him too. They keep asking me when I am gonna bring Michael home. Matt (my brother) even asked when he was gonna meet him! Lisa really hasn't said much about him except that she thinks he is just after me for a piece of ass. She only says that because he is 25 and I am 19. Trust me, that isn't even a big factor in our relationship. I mean the sex is amazing, but our relationship isn't defined by sex. We both have agreed that it was kinda nice to get to know each other on a mental level before we ever had sex. Mind you the first 4 months of our relationship was in the desert and we weren't allowed to even hold hands but still. I feel so complete with him. During the week we really don't see each other since we have work and I look forward to my days off because I get to see him. I love waking up in his bed and being able to watch him sleep, even if it is for a minute (so I don't wake him up). I love cuddling with him. I feel so safe in his arms. Gosh I have fallen for him. I think I love him. I have told him this, since I believe in total honesty in a relationship and I am very open and honest with him. I can tell him anything. I feel like I don't deserve Michael. He really is wonderful. I really don't want to fuck this up...I kinda like having him around.
This next portion I will only slightly touch (for now at least), but return to it in my next posting. Lisa got engaged about a month ago and told us 2-3 days ago that she is pregnant. That's right, I am going to be an aunt. I am gonna go into this more in my next time around. Allie and her boyfriend Mark got married and they are expecting a little girl in December. I am going to be the godmother and I am so excited. I am so happy for Allie. She really does deserve to be happy and she is going to be a great mother.
Alright homies I am gonna sign off here because I am tired but I love all you and take care!

Greetings from the Desert!

Well it has been a long time since I wrote so where should I begin? Oh yeah I am in Qatar right now on my first deployment. Wow it is such an eye opening experience! I have been here since 12 Apr and today I have been here for oh 2 months. And they honestly have flown by. I am having the time of my life. This is what I joined for! To fight for my country and see the world while I am pursuing my dream. I miss home, but I know I will be home sooner than I will be able to imagine so it's all good. I know this is really hard on my family, but I do want them to know that I am gonna be home soon. I am here for you guys. So you all can have the freedoms that these people don't. I am doing the job that nobody wants too, and I want to be here. I sleep easier at night knowing that there are people who actually give a shit enough to put their butts in the line of fire. I am sorry if any of this is offending anyone. Actually no I am not. Because I am so sick of hearing on the news or simply seeing how the American public has treated my fellow service members. There are the people who support us 120% and I thank you everyday for that. But then there are the people who make me get ill when I hear how they say we have no business being here. These people don't want us to leave!!! We give them jobs! We give them stability! But most importantly, we give them hope! So don't fucking tell me that I am not wanted here or have no business here!! Because if you could see the looks on these peoples faces, you would know EXACTLY what I am talking about. You would think totally differently. You wouldn't bassh the men and women who are fighting this war. You aren't doing shit! All you are doing is running your mouths. If you want to make a difference, you can have my job. Then maybe your asses would stop complaining and actually appreciate the men and women who have died for the pursuit of freedom. My final words on this subject are this. I am a target every day I put on my uniform, and I never utter a word of negativity. Instead, I put pride in wearing my uniform because I know that just wearing it makes millions of people sleep easier at night.
I look at this deployment for what it is and who I will be when I go home. I am a 19 year old veteran. I am not the same girl I once was when I first stepped onto the plane last year to BMT. I have seen so much and lived so much in this last year. I have seen countries and people that my friends and family will only see on the news or in the movies. I have grown up so much this last year! I am now very independent and I am making my own way in this thing called life. I am learning about the world, military and civilian, and am growing into the woman I am supposed to be. I know that I will be glad to leave the 130 degree weather and the rocks and sand, but I will come home a much better person. I love my job!!
To my family, I love you guys! If it wasn't for all the love and support, I wouldn't be here in the desert fighting for this cause. You all are what keep me grounded, reminding me of where I came from. I love you and cannot wait till I am back in the U.S. calling you guys at all hours of the day telling you how I am coming home soon. I do this for you. And in return, I have the biggest support from anyone. You are what get me through the day. I love you!!! Thank you for believing in this cause I am fighting for, even if you do not agree with it. I know you do it because you see how much I believe in it. I cannot say enough how much I love you for being my inspiration. I will be home soon! Take care and pray for all the people out here in Qatar and all the other deployed personnel. Peace, love, and chicken grease!

2005 in a Nutshell...

I look back at 2005 and am in awe in how much I accomplished in one year. I hit of milestones, experienced worlds of hurt and sorrow, loved someone and was loved in return, and achieved a childhood dream. I went from a dependent young girl to a very independent young woman. I went from learning about what I wanted to do with my future to dedicating my life to serving this great country and the people who are within it and to defend the rights we stand for. I changed into a well disciplined soldier and gave up a life that I was so accustomed to for the hardest lifestyle one person can lead and fell in love with the militaries crazy ass world. I fell in love so deeply with a man who shook me to the core and helped me have confidence in life and love. I went through many emotional struggles with my family and still am looking for answers to the questions that started it all. But most of all, 2005 was the year that I found myself. I became more comfortable in my own skin than I have ever been in my entire life. I learned alot of things the hardest way possible, came in contact with people who will forever touch my life, and went off to endure some of the hardest times I will never forget. My life will never be the same, and 2005 will definately stick out in my mind as one of the best years of my life. Hopefully 2006 will bring more and I will live and learn more than ever before.

Alot of time has passed since I last posted in here so I guess I shall get to all the wonderful things that have been happening in my life lately. Matt and I got back together and I am happy about that. I really do love him and want things to work out for us, even if it means us being apart for awhile. I work alot but I love my job so I am quite fine with it. I had my first pains of homesickness the other day and it sucked ass. I cannot wait to go home again but I don't know when that will be so I have to just deal with it all. Oh well. On to better news...I put on my first stripe tommorow!!! I am so excited. I have been waiting for it since I graduated basic!
I have to go to the doctor at 1400 and I hate it! I have no clue what is going to happen and I am terrified. I don't really want to say what for because I don't want to worry anyone but all I can say is just pray for me. Hopefully things will get better and I won't have to go to the doctor anymore. Yeah!!
Gosh I really don't know what else to say so I am going get off here and have Crystal take me home. Love yall!!!

The End

The time for this to end has come,
But I don't want to let you go.
Although my heart knows it isn't right anymore,
My head refuses to accept it.
I met someone else to change my heads point of view,
Yet my heart still leans to you.

As the days go by,
My head starts agreeing with my heart more and more.
It pains me to let something so amazing pass like the wind,
Yet I know deep down that our paths are totally different and we are reading different books when it comes to our lives.

I have learned through my military training that I have to just let go,
And I have more pressing matters at hand to deal with.
But I want you to know that even though I show no signs of pain , guilt, or remorse,
I feel them when I wake up,
When I take off my uniform,
And when I go to bed at night.

Never doubt that I loved you,
Because I always will.