Him: Part 2

What should I do? I can't stop thinking about him. It's like he has invaded my private, personal thoughts. I mean I am only alone when I block out everyone and I can't even do that now!! Everywhere I go, I think of him. Everytime I go to sleep, I see him. Hell I even see him sometimes, as if he was a mirage or something. I haven't seen him lately but I do remember the last time I saw him and all I have to say is this: Damn!! He was so good looking. I mean I don't remember alot about appearances because I hate having to re-explain the persons looks to other people. I have like this mental camera and I swear its on overload with pictures of him. Even pictures of when we first met! I can still remember what he was wearing the first time we met and remember he made me genuinely laugh. And when I say genuine, I mean I wasn't laughing to make him feel better about himself. I wanted to laugh and ever since I still laugh at all his jokes, no matter how corny they are (because sometimes the corny jokes make you laugh more). Sure its easy to get people to laugh, but to keep them laughing is the key. He does that and I hope I can still do that as well.
Many wouldn't understand why I have held on for so long but he does. Even if he can't explain why every time he meets someone he has to keep his feelings for me at bay, I know why he does it. And he knows why I do it. Because we have lives to live. We can't revolve our entire life around each other and miss out on things we were supposed to do. We both know that deep down we will always love each other more than anyone else in this world.
He has played an important part in my life and can't imagine him not in it. I will always keep my promise and I know he will too. Even if he and I can't be together physically (not sexually, so take that thought out of your dirty mind!), I would settle for the mental togetherness we have had for some time. It brings me to peace inside knowing he's always going to be there for me, no matter how bad I fuck up. Its always good to have that kind of person in your life, don't you think?
Life is short and should be as stress-free as possible. Which is why I won't reveal who this mystery guy is. Sure I will write alot more about him but I won't tell who he is.Because he knows who he is. So that's all that matters.