Him: Part 3

I had a dream about him. It wasn't a bad dream, but I just wish I could escape him sometimes. I wish I could control my thoughts and dreams and stuff but I can't. I swear something is seriously wrong with me sometimes. One day I'll be able to fix my mistakes of the past, but I don't know if I consider him to be a mistake. I mean if I thought he was a mistake, would I call him at odd hours of the night when I can't sleep? Would I stay in contact with him at all? Yeah these might seem like dumb questions to you, but to me, they are pretty ligtament questions. And I question everything. Especially now days I am questioning any and everything that has to do with my future. Will he be in my future? I hope so but life has never asked me what I have wanted so I guess I will have to sit back and see.