Joe

Have you ever wondered when you would meet someone who not only made you extremely happy but someone who you just hit it off immediately with? I have asked myself this question so many times because I have always been burned when it comes to men. I always thought that my love life will be one big car crash. But lately it has started to look up. I met a guy who I can not describe how great he is. His name is Joe and he is an ex marine and is a fireman. He is so awesome. He makes me laugh and makes me feel really good about myself. I have needed someone to do this for me for the longest time. I am so happy when I talk to him. Joe makes me blush and it takes ALOT for me to do that. And he makes it look so easy. We have so much in common. We both love history (and I count that as a plus), both like to read and write poetry, love to run, being outside, and so many more things that I can't even remember them all! Things about him just make me all warm and fuzzy. I rarely get the warm fuzzies too. Everytime I talk to him online I get to view his webcam and he gets to view mine as well. I said that because he will look at his cam and gosh the way he looks at me through his cam makes me turn into mush. And his smile could blind people. Yeah Mandie I know you are reading this and I know this so doesn't sound like me but I don't know why I feel all this about a guy I barely know. But I feel like I have known him for years. It's so weird. I feel like I can trust him with things I have never trusted men with ever. Heck I feel like I can trust him with things I can't even trust me with. I don't know why I feel any of this but I do. It is all so new to me because hell we all know my track record of heart breaks. I don't know how to really be my carefree, no guards up kinda person in a relationship. And I don't want this to effect anything with Joe. We aren't dating (at least I don't think we are) but I don't want my insecurities in relationships to ruin what might become of the two of us. He's so good to me and I feel like I don't deserve any of it. But I know that I do deserve to be happy. And he makes me happy so maybe he will be around for awhile....