I'm over Jon

I realized something today. I am over Jon. I realized this yesterday when I was with Matt. I don't know why he was so drawn to me and started talking to me last night but I am so glad he did. Being around him last night was so awesome. It was so cute the way he initated the conversation. He was very casual and asked me if I wanted something to drink because he was going to get him something from the gas station. I told him I didn't and he said he wasn't thirsty either. We talked about school and how I want to be a lawyer and how I really like history and baseball. Then I found out he plays baseball and it was hook, line, sinker for me. And I didn't feel guilty for flirting back with him. That's when I realized that I was over Jon. I mean more than I have been I should say. I still have feelings for Jon and I know I always will because he was the first guy I ever loved. But I don't have that tiny bit of me that misses him anymore. I am really happy to say that I am over Jon and I have no regrets about it. I don't regret kissing another guy and I don't regret giving him my phone number. It might sound dumb of me to say I am over him because I don't feel guilty for my flirtacious actions. But until yesterday, I felt this really guilty pang inside because I was talking/flirting with other guys. I didn't feel one ounce of guiltiness. So I think that even if nothing becomes of me and my baseball hunk, I will forever be grateful to him for helping me get over my ex boyfriend.