Me and Love

Well this weekend was really fun. Dispite everything that happened with Al, this weekend wasn't a total lose. I went to the game, to a party, and went on a date. Not too shabby if you ask me. Especially since I haven't gone out on a date in almost 6 months. I forgot how scary dating was! I think I enjoy being in a relationship more than not being in one because I don't have to worry about what I look like or anything that you must worry about when you go out on random dates. I kinda miss being in a relationship, but at the same time I don't because I keep getting hurt by the guys I date. I am pretty much cynical when it comes to love right now. But I feel like I have a right to be. I mean why shouldn't I be? I think I earned the right to be cynical. If you don't think so, then you suck. But that's just my opinion. I don't know I if I will always be this cynical about love and relationships, but right now I am. If you know me, I am never cynical about anything. Except love. I think that is the only I am irrational about. But I also really haven't seen what true love is. I mean sure I somewhat saw it with my Nana and Papa but I hardly remember my Papa so I don't count that. But I never saw it where it counted. So I guess I will always feel resentment towards love because I will never get to see it where I should have.