Boys Suck
Boys suck. I hate them right now. Why do they always have to mess with my emotions? I don't do that to them (or at least not intentionally). Why must they repeatedly break my heart? I bet you are wondering why I am all the sudden angry about men. And its because Jon is messing with my head again. He told me the other day that he still loves me and wants us to get back together. I don't know what I want anymore and him doing this just confuses me even more. I just want to be over him but every time he does this, everything I felt for him comes back to me. A part of me misses him but the other part of me doesn't. I just don't know what to do anymore...
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Ok heres how I see it.... you are going to the Airforce. Hes in the Navy.. Hmmm.. When was the last time you smiled and it was real? When was the last time you didnt feel like pulling you hair out cause of him? In the words of the beautiful Cody Candada (ccr)..."Memories over rated all they do is get you down and frustrated. who needs that on their back? startin over cold turkey washin your self of every thing thats dirty. Seal your heart love every crack. Your no longer sick and tired..." When you can do that you will be happy. Until you pick up move on and have a life separate of him you will never know what true happiness is. Im proving that every day....
Moving on hurts when its a messy break up. I don't think I am ready to get hurt again...
Sweetie I know all about messy break ups. Um Toby was cheating on me and didnt have the balls to tell me. Pain is no new concept to me. Weather or not you are ready eventually it has to be done... I know I am not ready for much other than dinner at home with Kristy and Isma the evil.. But Im trying. The last thing I expected was for some one to make me smile but it is happening. Deal with the ghosts and face all your deamons.... Yes thats a song too. Music is freeing emerse yourself in some that will heal...
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