He's baaaack!!

Tommorow is Valentine's Day. Whoop-dee-doo! I swear I hate that day. Even with a boyfriend it sucks. I know that I should be embracing this day because I have a boyfriend who I could possibly love one day. But I know exactly why tomorrow is gonna suck. Guess who's back? If you guessed Jon, you are right! I feel like he is coming around again to try to get me back. I can't fight him anymore. I feel as if he has like this radar that tells him when I am happy. And so that way he can come back into my life and fuck it all up again! His friend Mark says that he was on this morning asking about me. And Mark thinks that he is here in Texas. What if he tries to come see me? What if he breaks me and Joe up? Oh gosh I would kill him if he did that. I try to think positive, that maybe Jon will just want to be my friend. But the more I think about it, the more I become sure of the fact that he will try to get me back. I refuse to go back down that road. I know I have said that about a billion times but I have to keep telling myself that. I have to remind myself of the world of hurt he has put me through. Because if I don't, I will let myself go back to him. And that would mean losing Joe. I don't want to loose him. I feel so happy when I talk to him. He makes me feel the total opposite of the way Jon did. I don't want to sacrifice the happiness I have so longed for to just get hurt again.