Happy Birthday Matt!

Today is my lovely boyfriend Matt's birthday. He is 18 now and I am so happy for him. I only wish I was with him to celebrate the fact that I won't get looked at wierd when people find out he is younger than me anymore! I'm just kidding on that one. But I do wish I was there with him. I know when I had my last birthday I was so against it all, but I still had Matt to call on and cry on. I know he wouldn't be crying on my shoulder, but I feel like I should be there. Like I owe it to him. I know he says that I owe him nothing, I still can't wish I was there for him today like he was for me. But I know that I can always make it up to him sooner or later....lol.
To my sweetheart, I love you so much and I want to wish you a very happy birthday.

Long time no talk! I guess things have been so crazy that I never got a chance to sit down and write about how things have been. I have been busy helping my brother pack up my dad's house, but I really won't get into that one just because I am not speaking to my father due to this. Anyways I am up here in Omaha with everyone. Matt came up here with us (I think it was mostly because he didn't want to see me leave), and he left this morning. I miss him so much already. I wish he could have stayed but I understand he had to go back home. I have to admit I had a hard time watching him go but I know that this isn't a permanent separation so that made it so much easier. After Matt left I sat on the porch for about 10 minutes and then I went inside and put on his hoodie and tried to keep myself from crying. I know it sounds really stupid but being away from him is so hard. He literally has kept me alive these last few weeks. His love was what made me get up in the morning. And it still does. I miss him. I miss hearing his laughter while I am tickling him. I miss him holding me in his arms and making me feel as if nothing will ever harm me. I miss seeing his smile. Hell I even miss that boy's gas! You know what? This whole love thing is just plain wierd sometimes, but I love it!

Prom

I have yet to write about prom so I will today, even though prom was 2 weeks ago. Better late than never right? So about prom. It was on May 21 and it was held at Union Hall. Matt was my date (of course) and we took a Corvette to one of the biggest nights in Borger (if I'm lying I'm dying on that one too). I wore a huge dress that was pale yellow and very poofy on the bottom. I shall try to get pictures of Matt and I up asap for those who wish to see how well I clean up for formals. Prom itself was a blast, regardless of what some of my classmates say. I have to say that I enjoyed myself. I suprized alot of people by not only how beautiful I looked (Matt's words, not mine), but how well I can dance. I sure suprized Matt! He didn't realized that I could freak dance as well as I can and wooo wee I loved the look on his face when I got down and dirty to my rap song "Get Low." After prom we went to Amarillo with Carlos and Natalee and went to get some food at IHOP. Then I think we left Amarillo around 3 a.m. because I got home sometime after 4 a.m. If I had been more tired than I was, I might have fallen asleep in my dress but I had enough energy to take it off. Then I slept all day the next day. But I have to say that prom rocked and I wouldn't do it again!!!!

Graduation

So it has been a little bit since I last wrote in here but I guess I should start from the beginning. Let's see then I graduated from high school on May 27 and oh my gosh that was so exciting!! I have never been so proud of myself, yet at the same time I was telling myself I could have done alot better in school. I had to keep telling myself to not throw up or pass out as I walked across the stage because I was so excited and nervous at the same time. And then I got to sit and watch my two best friends graduate and I was never so proud of them. I thoguht that if it hadn't of been for them, I might not have made it through my four years at Borger High. To Allie and Matt, thank you for all the memories and for all the love and support. You guys are the reason I wanted to stay here in Borger. I will miss Borger High so much, even though I complained so much about it. Farewell to BHS! And congrats to all the graduates of 2005!