Moving On

I saw The Princess Diaries 2 just a little bit ago and it got me thinking. What if the one person we are supposed to be with is someone you least expect? Or much less the person you are supposed to date is someone you don't know if you want allow yourself to have feelings for. I think I just might like Bitter but he's just a friend....or is he? I mean all I wanted all day was to see him and get a hug. But I still can't get Jon out of my head. I feel so wrong thinking about some other guy. I am in the proccess of mending a broken heart and I don't know if I can. I just want to say that I was never called a cheater or shallow or heartless or not caring but I can't. I feel like that if I can't forgive Jon, I will always think that every guy I will attempt to get close to will hurt me like that as well. I know that one day I will forgive him for those words, but I don't know if I can forget. I feel like this will fuck me up even more in relationships. I hate relationships sometimes but I know that if I don't try to put myself out there now, I never will. Maybe Bitter is my new beginning. I just hope that if I do try anything with him, I will be able to move on from the hurt of my last relationship.