A Little of Everything...

I'm sitting in English bored out of my mind. I'm supposed to be working on my research paper but that damn thing is starting to get really boring. I mean its an interesting topic but I am tired of reading the same stuff over and over again. I just want to get that damn thing written so I don't have to deal with it anymore. Hopefully I will finish it this weekend and I won't have to worry about it anymore. That alone it would make my day.
So I think Allie is mad at me and I think I know why. I think she is mad at me because I said that I might like someone she has liked for a while now. But I got to thinking about it and I don't think I do. I see what this is going to do to my friendship with Allie so it's not worth it. I would rather be miserable and not be able to like someone than not have Allie. She's one of my best friends and I have missed her these last couple of days. I'm just going to give her some space an when she wants to talk to me again she can. But until then, I'm just going to let her be.
My day has been much better than yesterdays and the day befores. I mean at first it kinda sucked because of the silence between me and Allie, but it has slowly gotten better. I think the fact that it's Friday made it that much better. Friday's always mean no school in the morning so I'm always in some kind of good mood. Friday also means that I get to talk to Matt for as long as I want and not have to worry about being so tired in the morning. I got to talk to him for a little bit last night. It was nice because he made me feel a little better about everything that has been going on. I don't know why I have been so blah these past few days but it's better than I was last year. Last year I was blah for so long I can't even remember when it started. I hate having those days because I didn't like the place I was in last year. I don't ever want to be that depressed again. It was too hard to have to go through that kind of pain and struggle once again. So my goal for this year is to not be depressed about anything...or at least nothing that I can help.....