My Shitty Day

So today totally sucked. I slept late, Allie is pissed at me for some reason, I had to cancel my yearbook order and get another thing from Who's Who about getting that damn book which I can't afford. I have to send in my thing for the National Honor Roll and wait so they can send me more shit telling me I should buy the book with the money that I don't have. I hate not having any money and there is nobody hiring in this piece of shit town. And then I get to go find out in the morning that I didn't get cast in the play because Duncan never casts me anymore. I don't even know why I audition anymore. I'm so freakin sick of constantly being reminded that I have no money and can't get the things that I want. I probably won't be able to get any of my senior shit because we have to prepay for our shirts and all that other shit. And I don't want to think about prom because it's so fucking expensive and because of that factor (and the fact I think prom is one big stupid tradtion), I don't wanna go to prom. But of course I "have to go because if I don't, I'm going to regret it". I could careless if I will regret it or not. I don't want to spend $200+ dollars on a dress that I'm not going to wear but for a few hours. Just the whole prom thing is too fucking expensive for just one night. I think I know a solution to my "no money" problem. I am just going to stop opening all those college letters, Who's Who letters, and National Honor Roll letters. Instead of opening them, I'm just going to chunk them. Fuck them.