I am so critical on myself sometimes. Why? I have no clue. But yet I can't seem to be positive toward myself. If somebody tells me I am attractive, I just laugh and tell them that they are either wrong or crazy. Or I tell them I don't see what they see. Because I don't. Or why is it when I have a great guy right in front of me I don't know what I want? And he knows what he wants but it doesn't involve a relationship. At least not that he is telling. But back to the critical me. I don't know why I do this to myself. It's like the one thing that I do to myself that I can't stop. I wish I wasn't this way but I am. I wish I could believe people when they say that I am pretty, or beautiful, or whatever it is that they say I am. I hate that I am so hard on myself. I hate that so much but I don't know how not to be. I wish I could be easy on myself sometimes. I just don't know how to do that. You know how they say your toughest critic is yourself? Well that definately applies with me. I wish I could find someone or something to help me lighten up a little. Or at least help me see what everyone else sees in me.