What are we?
What am I doing to myself? I should be asleep but instead, I am waiting on him to get on the computer like he said he would. Is that stupid of me? I mean for all I know, he is doing this on purpose and doesn't want to talk to me at all. But he could just be trying to figure out what is going on by talking to his friend Mark, because he said that's where he was going. I just wish that he would hurry up because I am tried of waiting. I wouldn't make him wait this long so why is he doing this to me. Was it something I said? Or didn't say? I mean I am so confused as to what we are right now its unreal. He told me he loved me and I think I hurt his feelings when I didn't say it back to him. I don't want to say something that I don't know if I'm supposed to say it back or not. I won't say it either until I know what we are. To me, there is a difference between telling someone that you will always love them, like I have told him in emails (because I thought we were over) and telling someone that you still love them (as in a couple). I don't want to say "I love you" to him unless it is me telling him as my boyfriend and I don't know if he is. He says we are dating but I see it in a different light. I just am so confused as to what is going on. I know I love him, that's no doubt, but I don't know if I am supposed to or not. He has it all figured out so he can say whatever he wants. But I don't have a clue what is going on so I won't say anything until I know for sure. At least I won't say it to him. I don't know what to think anymore.....
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Ok so Im in a similar situation.... Toby came here and we talked. Well that was on the 21st. Well he said he wasnt gonna date anyone else cause he loves me and we are together just takin a small break. Ok well then he tells me that if I find some one I want to go out with to do it. Well I dont know what to say when people ask if I have a boyfriend. Ive been asked on a few dates and to all I have said thank you but no. Another person who shall remain nameless asked me if we could meet up later and talk. I said no. But he is a friend and well I know what he wanted. Thing is we are both attatched to other people. Aint sayin there aint an attraction just nothing else. Well anyways. I dont know what to classify me and Toby as. I am just acting as if I still have a boyfriend and turning every one down. Oh and dont feel bad if I tell Toby I love him right now he just says ok and hangs up the phone. So your not alone....
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